Life..... again
Inconsistent. Unreliable. Irresponsible. Lazy. Wannabe. Grammatically incorrect.
Those are just a few of the words that went through my head as I even contemplated picking back up "blogging" again. However, I wouldn't consider myself a blogger. I'll leave that to my friend Rachel... you should check her blog out by the way --- Rachel Emily Blog Despite my unworthiness and lack of qualifications, I feel called to share my heart. We can just simply call me a "sharer." So this is my space to do so... I hope you will join along, and hopefully be encouraged.
Let's just chat about Sundays for a minute. What are Sundays to you? Sundays are a day to spend with my family- a day to go to church, take a nap, play with Josie, and prepare for the week ahead. This picture basically sums up what it looks like to take Josie to church.
This morning during our worship music set- I found my brain drifting off.... do people think Josie is cute right now? (The answer is yes- she had her little hand raised and it was the sweetest)... I wonder if I've gotten anything on my white pants yet... Josh sure is doing a good job playing the drums, etc. etc. etc. Then, I felt the Lord say- "draw near to ME, Chelsea... forget about the people around you, the people on the stage... take Josie to the nursery and BE with ME."
So... I did just that. (I do feel it's really important for Josie to come into worship and hear music and learn to respond to Christ in worship).
The lyrics of one of the songs- just wrecked my heart! (Seasons, by Hillsong)
The past 16 months of having Josie have been the greatest of my life- but some of the most challenging. I'm on a journey of discovering who I am again and how to work that in with my new role of "momma-ing" Before Josie, I was "all in, non stop, let's do it all and help with all" for church, work, and in friendships... but now... there's Josie. She needs her momma- and it's my job to nurture and raise her into a functioning and contributing adult in society-- and that requires my presence and my intentional thought.
After Josie was born, I kept finding myself jealous of Josh... he was able to quickly jump back into playing drums at church, kept running our company with excellence, spent time and was intentional with Josie, and still found time to keep our yard in pristine condition each week... (we have 3 acres, so that's a task in itself). But for some reason, it was harder for me.. and still is harder for me.
I have no idea what the future holds for my heart- or for "my thing"... but I know it will be good. I'm not done waiting... I know God has something great coming up.
Until then- I'll keep setting aside intentional time for me with exercise, time in the word (sometimes with cartoons in the background), and with my health. I firmly believe all of those have made a huge difference in my life. So momma's- I encourage you to do a little self care today!
Let's wait and see what God is working on that we can't quite see yet.
Those are just a few of the words that went through my head as I even contemplated picking back up "blogging" again. However, I wouldn't consider myself a blogger. I'll leave that to my friend Rachel... you should check her blog out by the way --- Rachel Emily Blog Despite my unworthiness and lack of qualifications, I feel called to share my heart. We can just simply call me a "sharer." So this is my space to do so... I hope you will join along, and hopefully be encouraged.
Let's just chat about Sundays for a minute. What are Sundays to you? Sundays are a day to spend with my family- a day to go to church, take a nap, play with Josie, and prepare for the week ahead. This picture basically sums up what it looks like to take Josie to church.This morning during our worship music set- I found my brain drifting off.... do people think Josie is cute right now? (The answer is yes- she had her little hand raised and it was the sweetest)... I wonder if I've gotten anything on my white pants yet... Josh sure is doing a good job playing the drums, etc. etc. etc. Then, I felt the Lord say- "draw near to ME, Chelsea... forget about the people around you, the people on the stage... take Josie to the nursery and BE with ME."
So... I did just that. (I do feel it's really important for Josie to come into worship and hear music and learn to respond to Christ in worship).
The lyrics of one of the songs- just wrecked my heart! (Seasons, by Hillsong)
" I can see the promise, I can see the future
You're the God of seasons, I'm just in the winter
If all I know of harvest, is that it's worth my patience
Then if You're not done working, God I'm not done waiting"
The past 16 months of having Josie have been the greatest of my life- but some of the most challenging. I'm on a journey of discovering who I am again and how to work that in with my new role of "momma-ing" Before Josie, I was "all in, non stop, let's do it all and help with all" for church, work, and in friendships... but now... there's Josie. She needs her momma- and it's my job to nurture and raise her into a functioning and contributing adult in society-- and that requires my presence and my intentional thought.After Josie was born, I kept finding myself jealous of Josh... he was able to quickly jump back into playing drums at church, kept running our company with excellence, spent time and was intentional with Josie, and still found time to keep our yard in pristine condition each week... (we have 3 acres, so that's a task in itself). But for some reason, it was harder for me.. and still is harder for me.
I have no idea what the future holds for my heart- or for "my thing"... but I know it will be good. I'm not done waiting... I know God has something great coming up.
Until then- I'll keep setting aside intentional time for me with exercise, time in the word (sometimes with cartoons in the background), and with my health. I firmly believe all of those have made a huge difference in my life. So momma's- I encourage you to do a little self care today!
Let's wait and see what God is working on that we can't quite see yet.
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